Holiweeks

I finish this Semester of Uni soon. I'm really looking forward to my holidays. I can't say I've earned them, but I definitely think I need a break from Engineering. However, I just did the math yesterday, and I found out that I start my training for my internship on the 10th of December in Perth and I continue my internship all the way till Uni starts next semester in Late Feb. I get hardly a few weeks before I have to go through the hell of Mechanical Engineering again. I really want to defer but also really want to not fuck up my life too. Can you see my dilemma?

There's so much about me I want to improve: Appearance, fitness, intelligence, social skills, ability to play guitar, involving myself more at Uni. But for some reason or another, I always end up with a giant glass wall in front of me. I can see the person I want to be, but I can never quite become that person. I suppose that's human though, eh? I suppose I should just accept the aloof, pathetic, jam stain on society that I am.

I'm so tired of being tired!

WHEN WILL THIS SEMESTER ENDDDDD!!!?

walk n work

I just finished a 3 hour shift from Grill'd - an exhausting task. I then decided it would be a good idea to walk home from Darling Harbor - also an exhausting task. I started walking at 9pm, walked straight to Coles, then walked directly back home. I got back at 11:30. Why does 2 1/2 hours of walking pass so quickly, but only double the time flipping burgers go so slowly :/.

I also met my Dad briefly in the city for drinks with his fellow coworkers. It gave me a big of insight into how adults behave outside work. The answer is 'interestingly'.

I've got work tomorrow at 11:30am, but I might wake up super early and head down to the beach for a swim!

Hunter

I went to the 'Hunter Valley' from the 3rd - 5th September. It was funtastic. The aim of the trip was to drive around to as many wineries as possible and get free wine tasters when you pretend to be interested in the product. We also brought a shit tonne of beer up too so we had a slosh fest pretty much every night. There was something really relaxing about lying down on a small sunny patch of grass surrounded by pure emptiness where you could see Kangaroos hopping around in the distance. Plus, Lochie is a really good cook - so we had fantastic food on offer all the time. I thought it was a great trip with great people - very glad I went.

Uni is killing me. Even though my contact hours aren't too bad and the class subjects aren't too demanding, I still find myself not being anywhere near as productive as I want to be. Recently, I've found myself going back to my bedroom and going for small 1 hour naps throughout the day. Ironically, I thought getting a job would make me more productive because it would get me into a routine of doing work - but it hasn't worked, instead I just feel more tired more often. I'm staying on top of all my assignments, but I still feel like I've got a 400kg weight attached to me everywhere I go. I also feel kind of selfish about having this feeling bugging me because I know people at Uni, and in my family have much more demanding timetables and they're much more ambitious and productive than me. This is the 21st century, right? Surely there must be some drug I can take to make me more productive :P

work n employees

Some of my fellow employees are driving me up the wall. I'm so sick of trying to socialize with these people. One employee in particular annoys me the most. His sense of humor is very bad - yet it is so well accepted by the other employees...
For example, here are some of his jokes:

Me: Hey man, can you prepare the almighty burger
Him: I'll prepare an almighty dick!

Me: The 'mustard pickle' burger goes to Jason
Him: Mustard Dick for Jason!

Other random employee: Can you mop up the floor during close?
Him: I'll mop it up with my dick!

Are you following the trend? I wouldn't be that annoyed by his sense of humor if it wasn't so well accepted by the other employees working there. But every time he makes one of these super predictable jokes, he gets a round of uncontrollable laughter from all the other immature employees - and it's not a sympathetic laugh, it's legitimate!

Anywho, I finished a 4 hour shift from 6 - 10pm, which mean't being unable to attend the village cruise. In all honesty, I was probably way too tired to go anyway since I stayed up really late doing my assignment the night before.

I've been epic facebook raped. A friend of mine hacked my facebook and placed my birthday 2 days ago. I think I got more birthday well wishes from that day than I did on my actual birthday. A lot of people were really spilling their hearts into their messages, so I didn't have the heart to tell them they were wrong...

roommates

I came to the realization today that 2 of my 5 roommates are quite racist. Pat and Tim - especially Tim - struck me as overwhelmingly racist today. After I suggested a drink at the Reege, Pat, Liam, Tim and Andrew voted to just drink in the house since we already had some beers. While we were drinking, we put on the TV and a show called "Go back to where you came from" came on. We were all making jokes about it - so at first I thought it was harmless humor. It was only when I noticed recurring overly exaggerated sarcasm on the same parts of the show that I begin to realize some underlying sincerity. Tim was the first one to prove my hunch correct when he started talking seriously about how:
Afghanistan generally supports the Taliban, otherwise there wouldn't be a Taliban
Afghanistan should fix their own problems without our international help because it's their own problem.
and Afghan boat people either have an anti western agenda or will inevitably end up screwing up the Australian lifestyle.

Pats racism was harder to pick up on, but was still there. Pats car got broken into the other night, but only the rear window was broken and the door was left locked with nothing stolen. Pat made a series of jokes about how some "kook" had tried to rob the car but probably couldn't reach the from lock from the hole in the window. At first I thought it was a joke, but after listening to his sincere opinions about boat people and the future of Australia during "Go back to where you came from", I got a very different view.

Eeep

Grill'd

So I'm on my 5th week after working at "Grill'd" - a small burger joint which prides itself on serving top quality burgers. Unfortunately, I still have not been paid! I've called up my TL's, managers, Bosses, and even the head department in Victoria. I guess my puppy dog face must be pretty damn good because Matt, my manager, called me up to personally apologize for the 'computer problems' that occurred when I was hired. He says I'll be paid by Wednesday.

Soon I'll be working in Word Square at the largest restaurant Grill'd has to offer. Todd, my Boss, says I'll be training people soon so that should be fun. I can barely keep up with the orders on a busy day where I work now! There are just too many burgers to flip - and the teamwork and coordination you need with the people who put the salad on the burgers has to be spot on. None the less, I'm looking forward to pulling rank on some of my fellow teenage recruits.

I've got an assignment due tomorrow - it's a really boring one. And I know that's probably an obvious thing to say, but in my opinion all Engineering assignments cover a spectrum ranging from "pretty boring" to "OMG, if I study this anymore, my heart will stop!". I should be fine I reckon.

I've got all tomorrow off. Due to timetabling issues, I haven't got a shift tomorrow at work, and I've got no official classes to attend to. I guess I'll have to make the painful decision of deciding whether to go to the beach or work on my Engineering Mechanics videos... HmmMmmmmmm...

A friend of mine two weeks ago said sarcastically "I hate you when you're sober". Even though i'm pretty sure she was being sarcastic, I can totally relate to that - most of the time I hate me when I'm sober. Is that the first sign of an alcoholic? Should I be concerned about this? Sigh, all this thinking is making me thirsty.

Once again I found myself contemplating dropping out of Uni today. The 'rents offered some good advice - "Don't drop out! Finish your degree, then sort your life out". But I can't help but notice that that advice can be applied to any stage in my life. I mean, when I was at high school I had the same thought rushing though my head all the time - 'get a good UAI, then I've got my future sorted'. Why is it society has a tendency to value our future more than our present, even if it comes at the cost of NEVER valuing the present? I'd say impulsiveness and selfishness is necessary from time to time to maintain sanity.

Regardless, I've decided to stay on with Uni and 'find myself' (whatever that means) after I graduate.

work

I finished work on Wednesday at 11:30pm. It was a pretty long and annoying shift because it wasn't too busy which gave me a lot of time to socialize with my immature workmates. When I finished I walked my way up to the bus stop only to realize my phone had died, and I didn't have cash or a valid travel 10 bus card. Unless I hitchhiked, pulled a runner on a taxi, or managed to sneak onto a bus, there was no way I could get home without walking. I ended up walking for about 1.5 hours from Oxford St to UNSW - an annoying task at midnight after standing up for a 4 hour shift.