Holiweeks

I finish this Semester of Uni soon. I'm really looking forward to my holidays. I can't say I've earned them, but I definitely think I need a break from Engineering. However, I just did the math yesterday, and I found out that I start my training for my internship on the 10th of December in Perth and I continue my internship all the way till Uni starts next semester in Late Feb. I get hardly a few weeks before I have to go through the hell of Mechanical Engineering again. I really want to defer but also really want to not fuck up my life too. Can you see my dilemma?

There's so much about me I want to improve: Appearance, fitness, intelligence, social skills, ability to play guitar, involving myself more at Uni. But for some reason or another, I always end up with a giant glass wall in front of me. I can see the person I want to be, but I can never quite become that person. I suppose that's human though, eh? I suppose I should just accept the aloof, pathetic, jam stain on society that I am.

I'm so tired of being tired!

WHEN WILL THIS SEMESTER ENDDDDD!!!?

walk n work

I just finished a 3 hour shift from Grill'd - an exhausting task. I then decided it would be a good idea to walk home from Darling Harbor - also an exhausting task. I started walking at 9pm, walked straight to Coles, then walked directly back home. I got back at 11:30. Why does 2 1/2 hours of walking pass so quickly, but only double the time flipping burgers go so slowly :/.

I also met my Dad briefly in the city for drinks with his fellow coworkers. It gave me a big of insight into how adults behave outside work. The answer is 'interestingly'.

I've got work tomorrow at 11:30am, but I might wake up super early and head down to the beach for a swim!

Hunter

I went to the 'Hunter Valley' from the 3rd - 5th September. It was funtastic. The aim of the trip was to drive around to as many wineries as possible and get free wine tasters when you pretend to be interested in the product. We also brought a shit tonne of beer up too so we had a slosh fest pretty much every night. There was something really relaxing about lying down on a small sunny patch of grass surrounded by pure emptiness where you could see Kangaroos hopping around in the distance. Plus, Lochie is a really good cook - so we had fantastic food on offer all the time. I thought it was a great trip with great people - very glad I went.

Uni is killing me. Even though my contact hours aren't too bad and the class subjects aren't too demanding, I still find myself not being anywhere near as productive as I want to be. Recently, I've found myself going back to my bedroom and going for small 1 hour naps throughout the day. Ironically, I thought getting a job would make me more productive because it would get me into a routine of doing work - but it hasn't worked, instead I just feel more tired more often. I'm staying on top of all my assignments, but I still feel like I've got a 400kg weight attached to me everywhere I go. I also feel kind of selfish about having this feeling bugging me because I know people at Uni, and in my family have much more demanding timetables and they're much more ambitious and productive than me. This is the 21st century, right? Surely there must be some drug I can take to make me more productive :P